Ok, I hate it when people call and when you answer, they hang up. What's up with that. If it's a wrong number then AT LEAST say, "oops, wrong number." That's what I do. Ugh. People piss me off sometimes.

Been talking to one of my friends about vampires and the movies. We've determined that there are different kinds of genre of vampire movies. Just as in the Worlds of Darkness there are different clans of vampires, there are also different types of movies (and shows). I think hands down (as does my friend) that Interview with a Vampire is perhaps the best vampire movie. But again, this is because we read the books and loved them. Anne Rice vampires are the "high society" vampires. The vampires who believed that they could live among the humans. Along the lines of the "Masquerade". If you blend in with them, how could they suspect. Man. I miss Kindred: The Embraced so much I might have to watch that. LOL :)

Wonder what happened to that show Forever Knight. Bad enough they cancelled Kindred: The Embraced but they just about took every vampire series off the air except Buffy and Angel. (which are both decent shows, I just haven't followed them lately). I really think it's about time they decided to get a vampire series back. I truly wish they'd bring back Kindred. Now that was excellent. Just about right with the actual Masquerade game. Maybe James Cameron should produce it. Wonder if he has the time!!! :)

*sigh* I'm working on 4.0 of the site. Actually I'm just about kinda tired of designing this site. Perhaps I'll just leave it as is. Don't know. Actually I'd like to change the poetry section. I'm all kinds of ready to make some new poetry. :) I'm just a bit tired of having stuff that pertain to Dana up there. LOL Some of the best poetry I've written granted.

Ahhhh...nothing feels as good a good old shower. :)

Well, went to get the Diablo 2 expansion. Or rather tried to. :) But they didn't have it. Oh well! So instead I got Gone in 60 seconds on DVD. I'm sure I'll like the movie, everyone said it was pretty damn good. Plus it's got Angelina Jolie in it. :) Gotta love it. Still in a great mood!!! I'm loving this! I have no idea why I am, but I'm loving it. Gotta clean house today. whew, hate doing that. :)

Tired. But amazingly enough still feeling good. :)

Hmm weird. My mood didn't change at all today. I've been in a great mood all day all night. Can't believe it. :) Something must be wrong. Hehehe. Actually was able to get a lot done at work even. Quite amazing if you ask me. :)

Hmm. I'm drawing a blank on what to write. Guess I've got nothing else to say.

I am SOOOO in a good mood today. Probably change when I get to work. hehe

Damn, just got back from "The Fast and the Furious". GREAT movie. I thought it was awesome. Loved the racing, loved the cars. Man, I can't get enough of that! I'm pretty speechless about it. :) Wow, I don't have much else to say. LOL

Ever seen that movie "Cruel Intentions"? If not, then stop reading. :) Remember when Sebastian didn't know what to do with himself? He found himself falling in love with this girl, and he never even meant to fall in love. It's quite amazing the things that happen. I thought that movie was so sad. I mean really. I don't want to talk about it very much just in case there are people who actually read these things and haven't seen the movie. Anyways, to my point. The song Bittersweet Symphony by The Verve. I don't think a more perfect song could have been picked for this movie! I mean, that's what it's all about right? It's almost as if the song was written for the movie, which I'm pretty sure isn't true. It's all in the words...

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony, this life
Try to make ends meet
You're a slave to money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places
where all the things meet yeah...

No change, I can't change
I can't change, I can't change
But I'm here in my mold
I am here in my mold
But I'm a million different people
from one day to the next
I can't change my mold
No, no, no, no, no...

Think about it. Can we change? Don't we all change throughout our lives? Come on, tell me no one's ever changed their musical taste only because their significant other liked that music. It happens all the time. When you get into a relationship, you're entire life changes! Now, not only are you involved only with yourself, but there's this other person who has become an integral, or perhaps a small part of your life. Even if they are a small part of your life, you will change a little. But the lyrics are true in a way. Sometimes it almost seems like you're traversing your life and it never does change. You keep going from job to job or location to location. You alway strive to do better to progress in your life. I mean isn't that what life is about? Progress? God, I hope so, because then all these years I've been doing it wrong.

Whoa. I just messaged by too many people and have now lost my train of thought. I hope that all made sense.

I'm listening to Jewel - You were meant for me. Probably shouldn't listen to this song since it reminds me of my ex-gf. But hey, what can I do, I love this song, it's so me.

quote: "You probably got it all figured out, Corey. If you start out depressed everything's kind of a pleasant surprise." - Say Anything

Working on Acid again. I finally finished Winter Storm. I think it worked out rather well. Most people will say it's not a "winter storm" but I think the title works. It's just what popped up in my head. Not sure why. I think I might work on an ambient song tonight. We'll see.

Been working on some music tonight. I'm loving Acid. It's a great piece of software. I'd recommend it for anyone who wants to make some great music. they make it so easy to do it's amazing. Finally made a song I called "Winter Storm" temporarily. Don't ask me why, it just popped into my head. If anyone is out there and wants to hear it, let me know. I'm still working on some finishing touches and probably come up with some words. That would be cool eh? :)

Random thoughts
Thinking about version 4.0 of this site. I'm not sure if I want to take the approach of the pop up window or not. Although the idea that I can set the window size is great, I just don't know if I want to limit it. Hmm. who knows. I'm thinking that I definitely want flash. What I might end up doing is making the site entirely flash driven. Now that would truly be a MAJOR change. Especially the coding. Hmmm. Not sure if I want to do that. I've done enough custom coding in PHP for my site. :) But then again, I'm never one to pass up a challenge. :)

Flash...hmm. That might be interesting.

Well, better get ready to go to work.

I am so easily distracted. Originally I came here to make an entry in my journal, then I went to vote for blogger on the webby awards, then I went to a couple of other sites on their list. Meanwhile, half an hour later, I'm making a journal entry, and I have no idea what I was going to write. Must work on that. :)

Hmm. Ok, so today I've done just about nothing. Having no vehicle really sucks. I'm feeling like I've got cabin fever here.

Anyways, scanned a bunch of images today, or rather did last night and finally put them up on the site. I'm looking at my photo gallery page, and I'm seriously thinking that I need to come up with a script to put them on multiple pages. Maybe I shouldn't have made so many scans. hehe. Actually the digital art gallery is horribly lacking. I guess I'll have to find some old art, or better yet, make some new ones. :) I've been really slacking. I want to get back into Bryce, but 1) I have to install it since my reinstall, and 2) I just don't know what to do with it. (excuses excuses)

Maybe the world is just sucking my energy. Nah. Probably should start thinking like an existentialist and do what I want. In which case I suppose that everything I write in here is truly only for my own benefit, since I am the only one who would read it. Is that right?

So does existence preced essence? Or does essence precede existence? I'm still not sure how to answer that one. i.e. is the chair there because you need to sit? or do you need to sit because the chair is there? I have no idea. I'll just go on the assumption that the chair exists because you will eventually need to sit down someday. So I guess today I'm rooting for essence precedes existence. I mean you would make the chair because you need to sit down correct? How could you create a chair and then say, "Hmm. What do I do with it? Oh! I'll sit in it." Rather clear to me. If anyone can tell me otherwise, I'd surely love to know.

For that matter, how can you prove that another person existed? Now that's a challenge. I mean really. Let's go with the assumption that the basis of existence is "I think, therefore I am." That has to be correct, because you know you think. So you must exist. (of course, I'm sure there's holes in that theory. ;p ) So. If that is true, then you must now prove that someone else is thinking. How in the world can you do that? This was a year long question for an automatic "A" in an honour english class my friend took while in High School. To this day, I know of only one person who actually almost got it. He created a quiz if you will, which I'm assuming would prove that someone was thinking. Baffling. I would just as well assume that everyone exists, and I'm the imagination. :) Well, it's much better to think that way at least. ;p

I must be getting a bit loopy. Look at all that crap I just wrote. So what else happened today? *shrug* nothing significant. I didn't win the lottery or anything. Didn't get married. Didn't go on a cruise. What a great day. :)

Things I want to do before I cross over:

1. Tour the world - bloody unlikely with my financial situation, but you never know.


2. Go skydiving - I *still* need to do this.


3. Take over the world - Hey, what can I say, I'm ambitious. Oh ok, not really, but I'll be sure to take some pointers from Brain. :)


4. Find True Love - someday perhaps. :)

Pretty big goals? Nah. Unrealistic? Maybe. :)

Ok so about 4am today, some guy is banging on people's doors, honking his horn. Um, what's up with that? I don't know about anyone else, but I never open the door unless I know who it is. Especially at this time of night. Maybe it's because I've lived in too many bad neighborhoods. Who knows. All I know is the bastard woke me up and I almost called the cops. Should have too. But apparently he was looking for one of my neighbors. Go figure. Let's go knock on everyone's door. No, I don't think so. If it happens again, I'll have to call the cops and make them do their job. That is just too ridiculous. Now I can't get back to sleep. That sucks.

Played a little bit of guitar with my friend Matt last night. I told my other friend Matt (I know waaaay too many Matts) that the three of us should get together and have a 3 man acoustical jam. Now that would be something. :) Anyways, taught a little bit of Wish you were here to Matt as well as some old 80's ballads. It didn't help that he didn't know any of the songs I listen to. He's into the current "Pop" music. Can't very well play those songs with guitar. :)

Also started working with Acid Music. Now that's a great piece of software. I composed a couple short blurbs, nothing major. My friend Vince did manage to get one song done, it was pretty good, industrial type music. I was liking it. Must learn more about this great program.

Went to the mall yesterday as well. I kinda forgot how it was on a friday night. Almost made me feel a bit old being there with what seemed like a million teenagers. Somehow I did manage to get through however. Picked up some more photos I had left at Wolf Camera. Picked up an HP Scanner while I was there too. Best Buy. Had a decent enough price. Matt almost picked up the Nikon N65 Camera kit they had, but I guess he felt refrained. Good thing too since his girlfriend Renee said they should wait till the end of the month. :) I myself could really use some new lenses. I'm thinking that the lens I currently have must be off, because some of the pictures I took just don't seem quite right. Unless there's something wrong with the camera itself? I hope not. My 8008S is a good camera, I'd hate to think I spent the money only to find out it's broken. At the very least, I still have my Nikon 2020, and that is definitely taking some really good pictures. I guess I'll have to run some tests.

I'm considering starting to develop my own Black and white. (which I should be doing already anyways) Whoever Wolf Camera outsources the Black and whites to do a horrible job. I'm currently shooting Plus-X 125, and I've never seen them so grainy. Not quite sure what's up with that, so I'll probably end up getting my own developing kit and start looking for an enlarger. I can make my spare bathroom into a darkroom, so that will be fine. I suppose I can probably ask my friend Dave if I can use his until I get a new one. He only lives about what seems a few blocks down the road. :) Plus, he and his wife (and their cutest baby girl Amelia) are good people. I like them.

Picked up my guitar again. Been a long time. I've gotta get reacquainted with it again. I'm sure it's missed me. :)

I want the kind of love that Jack and Rose had in Titanic.

Hmm. Chinese food sounds really good right now.

Holy crap, was I up late last night or what.

I am so in the mood for Say Anything right now.

Have you ever felt lost? I have. Almost as if I have no idea where I am, what I'm doing, and why I'm doing it. Lately I've been feeling that way. Maybe that's why I got my tongue pierced. It's as if that is the only constant in the universe right now. I know I've wanted to do it, so I did it. Lately I've been thinking that that's about all I've really accomplished. I mean yes, I've done a lot of things, but most of them are forgotten, or lost in an archive somewhere. My tongue will always remain the same. Unless of course I decide to take out the barbell. Even that thought has crossed through my mind. But then I think by taking it out, I am quitting. So every time I have had those thoughts, I think to myself that I am not a quitter, and will stick with it.

I got an email from a friend today. She sent me an email about Office Feng Shui. For those of you who do not know what Fen Shui (pronounced Feng Shwai) is, don't feel bad, I didn't either. Just keep on reading. Basically, Feng Shui is an art if you will, of the placement of objects in your life. Certain things fit into your life in a certain way. This got me thinking. If the placement of an object affects how certain types of energy or Chi affect you, I must be doing something wrong. ;) Seriously , however, Feng Shui definitely has it's merits. If you would like more information about Feng Shui, I don't have any on this site, but you can always search anywhere on the web for it. It's a rather popular subject.

I'm tired now. Going to bed. To sleep...perchance to dream...

Well, I've decided that I need to re-open my magazine again. orbitalrevolution will be back up soon! I'm thinking about putting it up so that submissions are automated. With an admin function like PHPNuke. Too bad Nuke isn't stable enough for me to use it.

Just got done playing a round of counter-strike (half life). It's good to know that even after a couple weeks I can still play decently. Scored 24-7, which I'm sure pissed off my buddy Smokesho. :) Happy days!

I'm so lazy today. I think I've accomplished nothing at all. I must now do something. I just don't know what.

I have begun The Sock Project. Let's see how many people buy me some socks. hehe.

Post Piercing Day 7

Woke up this morning, and my tongue was hurting. I think I must be doing some serious tongue exercises while I sleep! LOL But it's not swollen or anything. Good thing. Talking to my friend in Malaysia this morning too. She always puts me in a good mood. We've been chatting online for nearly 5 years!! That's a long ass time. ;) Finishing up a few touch ups on my site now. Glad I'm done with that. hehe.

Post Piercing Day 6

Well, my tongue is in great working order! ;) The swelling is gone down, the soreness is just about gone. The roof of my mouth hurts though from butting my tongue up against it. There's a dent there. hehe. Other than that, A-Ok!

I hate my life right now.

I got my pictures back. I must be the shittiest photographer in the world. Either that or my camera is fucked up. My digital comes out great. It just goes to show you should never buy cheap lenses. My shots with the 50mm came out great. But the 2nd rate brand lenses had some really funky shots. Totally not what I was wanting. Oh well. Can't do anything about that right? Buy new lenses I guess. Or stick with my Canon PowerShot. It rocks! ;)

Joseph is such an adorbable baby. I *almost* want a baby. : ) Well, since I've gotta grow older yet, I'll not worry about that. For now, I'll be "uncle Yoshi who has his tongue pierced." LOL Today, Shannon said to Joey, "You are never ever going to get anything like that. I will disown you." LOL good thing he didn't understand it. Of course, as Shannon was saying, you know that when Joey is a little older he'll keep asking me to stick out my tongue. (provided I still have it in.)

Listening to ZARD. She's a great singer. I love her voice. Actually I don't even know if she's still around in Japan right now. I don't see why not.

On a random note, I was pondering the idea of creating a FAQ...but my site isn't quite interesting enough I guess. Hehe. Oh well. I do know that the TOP question would be, "Why don't you clean your room?" Hehe.

Interesting conversation with Swan today. She told me I'm "high emotional maintenance". Although I have to agree, I don't think I'm just emotionally high maintenance. I'll take money any day.

Man, I've got too much to do on the sites. I've still gotta finish the gallery and poetry sections of this site, and I'm working on another photo album site. For a family. I'm *still* not quite sure how to lay it out right. Then there's still squaremovies.com. wow. Trying to learn Adobe Premeire too. Man I need to start drinking again. ;) Well, not really.

Going over to Jeff's to see the family. Man, everyone's growing up. I guess I better start thinking about that. It's not that I don't want to be married or anything, but right now I'm just not ready. Also helps to have someone to marry too. Maybe I should put an announcement for any single women to send in their marriage proposals. Nah. That would be dumb.

I heard from my friend Justin. Haven' t heard too much from him in the past year or so. He's moved to Kansas City since I last talked to him, stopped smoking (good thing anyways), got married, and got fatter (or so he says. I still can't see how his skinny ass could weigh more than 10 lbs. :) Since he's living so close now, we've definitely gotta hook up and go drink some beers or something. That would be cool. I would like to meet the wife as well, I'd love to know who wanted to marry his sorry ass. ;)

Talked to Michelle on sunday...finally. I gotta keep in better touch with her. I told her about my tongue getting pierced and she was shocked! But it was a good shock. I told her she should go too and that it didn't hurt, but she wasn't too conducive to that suggestion. *snicker* It's ok. We started talking about tattoos, and I'm definitely considering getting my name in japanese put on the back of my neck, just like she has hers. It just looks too cool. She thought I should as well. She's coming out to Evansville, IN for vacation to see her family, and she was thinking about coming on out. Thought that would be a great idea! Although I guess I'll have to clean up this place. hehe. Since everyone who looks at the webcam says the same thing: "Clean up your room!" :) I will. Soon.

Post Piercing - Day 4

Not much to say about it, except the swelling has gone way down. Right now, just a bit of inflammation near the hole itself. Expected I'm sure. ;) Although my tongue still does "itch". hehe.

Ever have those days where you're just feeling nostalgiac? Remember the times as a child you did this or did that? Like the one time my friend Al and I went to Summerland (a popular indoor swimming park with a big ass slide. hehe) with a whole bunch of girls. Man that was a great day. Or perhaps the day that my friend Mark and I went to New Hampshire as a short trip, and ended up camping in the White Mountain area for 4 days. Music makes me nostalgiac. Maybe I should stop listening to the old 80's music. Nah. I like to remember those times. Someday I'll take the time and write down as many experiences I can remember.

Hopefully some day I'll be able to look back at these journals and laugh at the funny moments and cry at the sad moments. Well, maybe not cry, but maybe tear up. ;)

Just random thoughts I guess. I tend to do that a lot. Now I *know* I was doing something before I decided to write something in here... If only I could remember what it was.

Post Piercing - Day 3

Tongue got a bit more swollen this morning, but it's gone down quite a bit. Now it just itches. LOL Kinda sucks. ;) But other than that I'm eating just fine.

Saw Dana today. She looks great! Makes me regret breaking up with her. LOL At least we're still friends, I like that. Kinda funny how you realize how much you missed someone when you see them again. Did that make sense? Well at least *I* know what it meant. ;p

I miss missing someone.

I miss being in love.

Post Piercing - Day 2

Well, it looks like my tongue is coming down in the swelling. I told Dana today I got it, she thought it was pretty cool. Everyone at work thought so too. Man, do women dig the pierced tongue thing? I'm thinking so. So I'm thinking that the next project will be my tattoo. I've already decided that I definitely want my name written in japanese on the back of my neck, just like Michelle did with her middle name, Eiko. It looked really cool, so I know mine should as well. At least.. I hope so.

Eating food - getting better. I ate a bagel at work, ate a bowl of corn when I got home and a piece of Hawaiian sweet bread I made in my bread machine. (Thank God for technology, eh? =) That's about it. I've been smoking about the same, so I've been washing my mouth out with diluted listerine every 30 minutes or so. That stuff is incredibly gross. Mental Note: I hate listerine.

Talking - can hardly tell. I was talking to Dana on the phone, she could not tell at all. She said that I didn't sound much different. Good thing, this practice stuff is paying off. (As if I'm really speaking out loud to myself. hehe.)

Pain - No pain, just soreness. My tongue is a bit sore, but the pain is virtually nil. That is cool.

Sleep - None. None since yesterday when I woke up at 7am. How sick is that. I need sleeping pills, or something. Who the hell knows.

I feel free!
One of my friends today ask me if I felt "liberated". (after telling him I got my tongue pierced) I thought that a rather interesting question. I didn't realize it before, but yes, I feel free now. How strange when you do something you know you shouldn't do, and you feel good about it. Wait. That didn't make sense. Well, I know what I mean. But yes, I feel free!

Can't believe so many people have already looked at my photo and "art" at deviant art and commented on it. There were only a few comments, but enough for this lowly poet/photographer to swell with pride. And here I thought all my stuff sucked...

I'm sore today. Eating food is hard. It's like I have to re-learn how to talk and eat. Wow.

On a different note, I did set up an account on Deviant Art. I uploaded a few images from my gallery up there. Mostly photographs. I think in the future I'll develop my own black and white film. Wolf Camera takes too long. =) It's ok, at least I get them put onto PhotoCD for free. I should have those by Thursday I hope. Then I'll have to be sure to rework my gallery and the rest of the site.

Damn, I did it. My friend Matt and I went out and got our tongues pierced. I was talking about it to my friend Karen last night, she said hers didn't hurt at all. Also the night before, a fellow alumni of my high school from Pemberton Township NJ added me to her contact list and sure enough she's got an 8 gauge barbell in her tongue! That's huge in case you didn't know. ;) She told me it didn't hurt either. So there you have it. Yesterday I told myself, if the opportunity presented itself, I would do it. And lo behold, today, my friend Matt wanted someone to go with him to get his tongue pierced. All I could say was, "hell yeah, let's go now!" Three hours after that conversation, we both had our tongues pierced. I called my sister and told her afterwards. She was totally unimpressed. I guess it didn't shock her that I would do that. Somehow I think I would be shocked. Regardless, it felt very good to do something that I've always wanted to do. I've been wanting to pierce my tongue since my friend Andrea did it a ways back in 96 I believe. She told me it hurt like hell. She must have had a totally inexperienced person do it because let me tell you, the guy who did mine did an excellent job. I wish I had gotten his picture before I left. Now I must go tell everyone that I've gotten my tongue pierced. How many people will think I'm stupid and how many will say, "cool!"? We'll see! ;)

I'm tired. Can I go home now?
Whew. Just got done grocery shopping. How tiring is that? In general, I don't mind going grocery shopping, but lately, I'm not liking it. Don't know why. It's ok, it'll all be worth it once I'm done making Chicken Adobo. Gots to love that!

Just listening to clickradio. What a great thing to have. I can hear the songs I like! And hear other songs that I might like. Just give it a thumbs up, and it plays more often. Man, gotta love technology. ;) A radio without a "real" DJ.

Got a call from my ex-girlfriend yesterday. I feel bad, I haven't called, I just haven't had the time, and by the time I get home, I'm sure she's gone from work (I've only got her work number. ;) It's good to hear from her. I love talking to her. Mental Note: call her tomorrow.

On a side note, haven't heard from ammy in a while. Or Katie for that matter. Man, I'm losing touch with great friends. OMG, I haven't talked to Michelle in like...weeks. Must...call....her....best...friend....LOL Wow now I feel bad.

Ok. Let's talk about templates here baby. I think I just spent about a half an hour trying this out. LOL Man, now I really need to get a basic layout going. *sigh*

Well. I've discovered blogger. Yet another thing I picked up from goobita (www.goobita.com). I'll have to thank her sometime when I get the chance. ;) Looks like this is what I'll be using to update my journal from now on. I'm totally impressed with it!